I am awake and feeling disgusting and it is 4am in the morning. I can't believe that I am starting to feel awful from lying on my back so early on. Last time I seemed to sleep on my front a lot more and of course that presented all sort of problems as well. It doesn't help that I am just plain uncomfortable lying down. It is OK when I am actually asleep, but when I wake up feeling like this there is nothing I can do but get up and eat something because I know that it the only thing that will make me feel even slightly better.
I have had to take this week off work because I am not coping physically with the pain from my Sacroiliac joint. I am off to the physio today to hopefully get something done about it. I spent most of yesterday feeling sorry for myself - so much so that I watched two really happy but sad movies so that I could have a big cry. I think it helped but then I felt yukky from crying. I think it is all just part and parcel of being pregnant - but it is also difficult to separate Mental health from within that.
When I found out I was pregnant, I decided to stop taking the anxiety medication that I had been taking for the past 5 months. The doctors told me that there was no danger to the baby from taking it, except for a slight risk of being born with some respiratory problems. I wasn't happy with that slight risk, but I was on a very low dose and now I am thinking that I should still be taking them. When I am taking them everything seems smoother and I am able to cope with life just a little bit better - I don't have anxiety attack's about going to a friends house for lunch for example. That was an extreme example. But it has happened.
Anyway, I have decided to see how I feel over the next few weeks and if I am not feeling any better by the time I go back to the ob/gyn at the end of October, then I will talk to him about it.
On another note altogether, I was just reading through a recent blog post of Katie's about this Marie Claire Article. I found it all quite interesting to say the least. I have had a look at each of the girls blogs, and their responses to the Marie Claire article. I can totally see Katie's perspective and understand her choices about not reading the said blogs because they are a trigger. I can also see how some people may feel the need to compare themselves to these seemingly perfect bloggers.
BUT you have to think about it in the context of America and the size of their population.These girls have hit on a food/exercise blogging formula that works and found themselves with a huge audience to boot. Of course advertising companies are going to jump on the bandwagon! This is what seems to happen to bloggers with big following in the states, they get book deals because they publishers know there is a guaranteed audience of thousands who will buy the book; they get to sit front row at fashion shows because designers see then as trendsetters who influence people to buy their clothes. Put simply, it's America! There are even bloggers out there who only have a blog to promote and improve their following to help to sell a line of fabric (or a book). I realise that fitness blogging can encourage people to aspire to be like those bloggers and live a perfect life - but it is important to to take a reality check and realise that they only put in the good parts, and the perfect photo's (they probably took 80). I enjoyed a couple of the blogs mentioned (having never seen them before), for their combination of discussion of marathon training and food intake. It is the kind of thing I like to read about when I am running and looking for inspiration.
Magazines are there for the purpose of selling magazines (and all of the products advertised within), they like to stir up controversy!
I hope your physio helps with the SIJ pain - that really drags you down (I remember it well!).
ReplyDeleteI haven't looked at any of the blogs yet - short on time - but a couple of things about the article struck me:
The author comes across as someone who's never trained for any kind of event and has no understanding of the nutritional requirements. I have no idea whether any of these women actually follow a sane meal plan, of course, but it reads to me like the typical couch potato's view of the "alien" athlete lifestyle.
And this quote: "Several women there appeared emaciated". Um...by whose standards? Perception is a funny thing. I don't think most marathon runners look particularly healthy, but would she call an Olympic athlete "emaciated"?
Just my initial thoughts. I'll go back and read it in detail later and take a look at the "Big six" (none of whom I've ever heard of...) as well.
Besides, taking photos of your food and posting them on the internet is SO not weird... ;) Reminds me, I better get some new recipes up. LOL.
That's no good that you're feeling so horrible Andrea. Has your physio spoken to you about using an SIJ brace - it's probably going to get more uncomfortable for quite awhile yet unfortunately. I found swimming in my second preg allayed the nausea (something about all that water) and calmed my jangled nerves.
ReplyDeleteI just posted about the MC article. Whilst I don't read the blogs mentioned, I do believe in the right to free speech.
It's wonderful to read all the dialogue and opinion though.
xoxox