You can tell it's getting closer because....

- Sleeping has become nightmarish. If I'm not waking up every two hours to go to the toilet then it is every other hour to roll to the other side and *try* to get somewhat comfortable again.

- I keep catching myself in the mirror - and thinking - crap this baby is going to be huge! (I think I look massive)

- Point number one above only happens when I can actually get to sleep in the first place.

-My back aches if I stand in one place for even a minute.

- I feel pretty average most days and am having trouble believing that there is still 4.5 (possibly more!!) weeks of this to go.

I am just getting so tired and I know that is why I made the decision to keep Harris in childcare three days a week but actually relaxing on those days is a whole other story. I want to relax but there is so much that I want to do before I have that haze of newborness again and I know that just doing the dishes from breakfast will be a challenge.

We have such great routines in our life and Harris is very routine driven and I am anxious about how it will all pan out. Harris is extremely attention needy - he is not the type of child you can give him something to play with and leave him to it - he needs you to be there playing with him.

Then there is my little anxiety issue - where I need things to be done a certain way or I start to feel anxious and out of control - these are all the things that I need to figure out once this little bub comes along.