The thing with these types of programs is that you are generally starving by the time it comes around to the next meal. The only problem is that on the days that I am at home I don't get to eat on my schedule - I get to eat to the little one's schedule.
I am a bit over today because while I have managed to stick to my planned exercise and food, I am tired from not being able to get to sleep last night and then getting up to a crying child at 5am, palming him off - still crying - to the ill husband at 5:40am so that I could go and squeeze in an RPM class and then spending the rest of the morning rushing off to pre arranged coffee with friends - which wasn't at all relaxing - because then I had to rush off to take the said ill husband to the doctor. Only to come home and have the child refuse to eat any lunch at all and then proceed to only sleep for 35 minutes. It was around then that I lost the plot!
I have had no "me time" at all for the past 7 days and don't see any at all for the next 3 at least and possibly 4. This is when I start to get depressed with life and its busyness, retreat and give up the exercise because it seems to be the thing that breaks the camels back so to speak!
When I am exercising I seem to go from that to feeding children to feeding other family members to cleaning up from all this feeding, to cleaning up from general life to my paid job and then me and the rest of my sanity start to come crashing down.
You'll notice there is no feeding me in there - thats because unless it happens on the run - it doesn't happen.
The thing is - I enjoy the exercise and I don't want it to have to go. I simply want to be able to fit it all in and have time for myself to sit and ponder the world without feeling the stress.
Some may say that I should see the exercise as the me time - but I actually need to have some quiet time to sit and read and take it all in - and to no be demanded of or yelled at by a 12 month old in the middle of it.
That and I think I just need some food - the tuna pasta for lunch today was divine although according to calorie King - a tad more than 350 cal - even with exactly measured portions.
Hey Andrea, think it's pretty normal to feel that way if you've had a trying week kid wise. Sounds like I'm going to have to get onto some of those recipes - are they in the CT book (which I've packed away)
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